I do not like writing. It does not make me happy. It is tedious and full of all kinds of detail that I hate to worry about or mess with. This probably accounts for why I've never worked on it and improved my ability to do it.
The Lord has been showing me that I have had a view of obedience to Him that could be summed up by "doing what He says when it is what I want to do or planned to do anyway." I'm slowly beginning to experience, not just mentally assent, that real submission is doing what is required of me at this time that I don't want to do. I know. It seems basic. But somehow I'm only beginning to get it and really work on it and one of the things that I'm painfully exercising this in right now is...writing.